I have a hard time explaining my current situation to myself.
Why am I here why do I not move and start a new life, a relationship, why would I choose to live with my ex husband who feels like an emotional train wreck. Financially sound while strengthening my relationship with my daughter. Why does my relationship with my 12 year old do so much better when I appease her father. Because when toxic people can no longer control you they control what others think of you. Why not run north west buy a little crappy place and spend the rest of my Forties walking in the sand crying for my daughter. Because Catie has already lost a sister she cannot be ok losing a mother.
I guess I knew those answers all along.
How long can a person survive ignoring the hierarchy of personal needs that I don’t know.